No To Workout Today

Okay I guess I'm paying for the extraneous workout week I had. My body is telling me "NO" forreals this time. I suppose I can make it up with cardio this evening with the crazy-ass dancing I plan to do.

I'm about to step out with the parents and my grandma for a little dim sum. I am going to make sure I do not go overboard since I'm already going to treat myself with a steak dinner at tonight's social, which I will blog about later.

Bye bye 4 now.

"I Have A Straight."

Went to the gym for 1 hour and 30 minutes today. Did my upper and lower body circuit with 2 sets each with about 8-12 reps of each exercise. Then popped over to the co-ed side to do my cardio on the treadmill. Once again I found myself breezing through the 20 minutes interval jog/run training. I think I may need to step it up a bit tomorrow with 30 minutes. But let me tell you...my legs killed after my cardio. They are still hurting as I am typing. So I may need to take it a bit easy tomorrow. But we will have to wait and see how I feel.

Went home and had to do chores. Kim aka window cleaner. I had to clean all the windows in my house. Climbed a unsteady ladder, which was quite high...was scared a bit but gathered enough courage to overcome my fear. I thought to myself...well if I fell off and died at least I would know I lived a little on the edge...haha.

Got ready to pick up the fellas (Christian & Devon) to go to Joe's house warming party at 9 pm. Met his new roommate/co-worker Graham (nice guy), and a whole bunch of new faces (Lisa, Cindy, Mike, Ralph, Raniel, David, Tyler). We played 2 games of poker, ordered pizzas and laughed all the way through it. Devon, Christian and Joe all said it looked like I lost weight since the last time they saw me. But really the last time they all saw me was last week. They said a week's worth of going to the gym really pays off for me personally. I was just so thrilled. I adore the feedback I am getting, which makes me want to work even harder to reach my ultimate goal. Back to the party...boy did the time just fly. The next time I looked at the oven clock it read 2:00 am. Mind you, I didn't win anything but overall I had an awesome time. I love meeting new people. Tomorrow there will be even more people to meet and greet. Excited? Yes!!!

Wow I Feel Good

Mornings are the same ol' same ol'. Wake up, eat cereal, go to school. Pretty boring stuff eh?

I went to the gym with my good friend Charmaine. I did my regular total body weight training circuit and my arm weight training circuit - two sets each with about 10-12 reps of each exercise. Then went over to meet Char on the co-ed side. NOW I know why many of my friends enjoy working out over on this side. To scope out the eye candy. It helps as a motivator too. Went on the treadmill for interval jog/run training for 20 minutes. For some very odd reason, running on the treadmill felt different today. I don't know if it was set too low of a speed or if it was all the testosterone in the room but I honestly think I could of easily done another 20 minutes. Weird right? I guess we will find out tomorrow.

Had my second pole dancing class this evening. Just as fun as the first. Mind you, there were some new girls who had to catch up on some of the moves we learned last week but it was okay because Mary Lou & I seemed like advanced students compared to them...hehe. We learned a couple of new moves: a sexy crawl on the ground, sexy rollover and some others I just can't seem to remember at the moment. I could show you but that would require a long, shiny stripper pole. Not today :D

Yah I Went

My friend Joe canceled on our afternoon of shopping, which was quite alright with me. I made a little trip to Winners. I bought a red sequined top for the weekend (tres sexy) and my first pair of black leggings. I swore to myself I wasn't going to fall for that trend but it's good to make a change...right? Something different and something new. Change is good.

I lounged around the house for a bit when I decided to go to Shapes and put in a workout. I guess I had enough energy in me after all. Did my circuit and then 20 minutes on the elliptical. Saw my good friend Charmaine, had a little chit-chat about the weekend and potentially going to an exercise class tomorrow afternoon. I guess we will wait and see.

Yes!!! My pole dancing class is tomorrow. I cannot wait. I cannot wait to feel "that feeling" again. Single, sexy and free.

Oh So Sore

Wow I feel like a truck has just run me over. I am super sore from my workout yesterday. My body is telling me not to workout today but my mind is saying the opposite. The hurt I am currently feeling could also contribute to the lack of sleep I had last night. I got ready for bed around 12:00 am. I also took a sleeping pill because I just knew I would have a rough time getting to sleep. I tossed, turned and went to the bathroom on many occasions. There was even a point when I said to myself "I JUST WANT TO GO TO SLEEP". The last clock reading I remembered was 2:45 am. I did not have a dream last night (thank goodness). I woke up to a blackberry messenger message from my friend Jant around 10:00 am. Had some cornflakes, went to school and am now waiting for my friend Joe to give me a ring-a-ding to chill this afternoon. If I get more energy, I may workout on the co-ed side later on. Maybe see some hot guys...haha. But I'll tell you guys about my adventures later on this evening. Have a great afternoon.

Another Night-mare...Another Dream

Well once again, I wake up feeling like a big pile of crap. Yet another dream...or more appropriately...a nightmare. I do not even want to get started as to what this one was about because even writing it would bring back those upsetting feelings. Not a good thing.

I went about my day as per usual. Went to school and then hit the gym. I did my new total body circuit twice through and 10 minutes on the StairMaster but had to leave due to a prior commitment.

When I got home, my dad, my brother and I raked all the leaves on our property. Lemme tell you something...I have never hated leaves so much in my life. Mothertucking leaves. You would think doing something like that would leave your mind empty except for the task at hand. Boy was I wrong. All I did when I was raking leaves was...umm...yep...you guessed it...."THINK". Gawd. I'm so sick of it. Is there maybe a device out there that can erase part of your memory. If so, please send to me IMMEDIATELY. Thanks.

Afterward, I thought to myself the workout I did earlier on in the day was probably not good enough because there was a lack of cardio. I went to the Shapes website to see what classes were coming up within the hour. Saw there was a 4:25 pm STEP class...looked at the clock, which read 3:45 pm and decided I was going to go for it. I've never been to a class before. I have always wanted to go with a friend because I was always so scared to go on my own. I thought to myself..."SELF, YOU CAN DO IT." Went to the gym for the 2nd time that day. I setup my riser and took my place. When the class started, the instructor had asked the class if there were any first-timers present. I wasn't going to put up my hand at first but after consideration I thought "Whatever. I got no shame. No one knows me anyways. Here I go." I put up my hand and all the eyes in the room went on me. I felt a little flushed but that only lasted for a second. I missed a couple of steps here and there but once we got into the groove I was finding the class challenging (in a good way). I was smiling through my sweat. This is one of the reasons why I thoroughly enjoy working out. It's the challenge and the endorphins that are released. Your mind is at ease. You temporary forget anything troubling you. You are here and pretty much just having a great time while helping your body. After the class, I told the instructor how much I enjoyed it. She said for my very first time in step class I did a great job. Sure, I feel sore but I'm loving it. I feel great. I am now considering substituting one or two days of my 20-30 minute cardio workout with a class. The only thing I'm not loving is the recent discovery of my lack of boobage. The one downfall with working out and losing weight. Booerns to that. Until tomorrow.

Ta ta for now.

Oh Enough With This Thing They Call "Thinking"

I am feeling a little down this evening over something so little. Something I already knew but it still hurts. I took a sleeping pill. I know it's bad but I had to. I don't want to do this to myself anymore. Too much thinking and over analyzing is not good for the soul. I just have to be strong and keep my head up high. Tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow brings new promises. A better "Kim".

Day 8: Weight Loss Challenge

Well it was pretty much your average day. Woke up, had lunch, went to school, then hit the gym. I put in a hours worth of my blood, sweat and tears with my new circuit this afternoon. I am still having a hard time with the cardio, but I think...no...I know this is the week my cardio is going to increase. I'm eating a whole lot better. I'm actually getting sleep without the aid of the sleeping pills. My energy is coming back without the massive cravings for junk. Why put it in my body if it doesn't help, right? I am detoxifying my body or trying to at least. I have my goal and am well on my way to reaching it. No mercy.

Today is picture day. I look different in this one compared to the first for 3 reasons. One, I am wearing makeup. Two, this picture is taken in the evening (no natural lighting as in the first image). And three, my hands are placed a little lower in this image. Honestly, I don't see a change but that's just my opinion. I am okay with that because since the first image I know I have gained my strength back both physically and emotionally. Enjoy.

Some Guys Are Jerks & Don't Even Know It

I hate it when people rub things in your face. Don't you? A sly comment here and another one there. Sometimes I just don't want to hear it at all. Please just keep those so-called innocent comments to yourself. They could/will hurt someone. Why even mention it or say anything when the person saying it knows very well it would annoy the recipient? Sometimes people know just the right buttons to press to tick me off. Wounds take time to heal. The wounds are still so fresh. Don't pick at them.

I HATE GUYS IN GENERAL RIGHT NOW. THEY ARE ALL JERKS...okay okay fine...not all are jerks but some are just disguised very well. In many cases, you won't even know they are a jerk until that critical moment. By then it's too late. The damage is done.

I know what I must do, but it's still gnawing away at me. I need time to think. All I can say right now is "BAH". That's it, that's all.

Back To Life...Back To Reality

Oh yes my glorious BB is back...well not the same pink one I had before. The unfortunate tale goes like this....too much moisture in phone causes the keys to sometimes die (note to self: do not put phone in between cleavage while dancing at the bar). Solution on BB forums - put phone in oven at 200 degrees Fahrenheit to pre-heat and turn off afterward to take away moisture. I did what they said and no such luck. So I went to the nearest Telus store and bought a new one...I know I know...I had to.

Afterward, I went to the gym thinking to myself I'm going to get in a good workout to make up for all the candy and junk food I had yesterday for Halloween (for the first time in a long time...don't hate). I started my new circuit. I went through it once and looked at the clock at what appeared to say 3:45 pm. My dad needed the car before 4:00 pm. I immediately took off and low and behold when I got home the clock said 2:50 pm. Stupid Shapes. FIX YOUR CLOCKS. So this is me...now angry at myself for not putting in the normal 2 hours at the gym. So tomorrow I will have to work extra hard to make up for today. Well at least I got a working cell phone again, which puts my happy scale at a 7.

Going Crazy Without My BB

I am naked...just naked without my phone. It is so sad to even utter those words. I have become so reliant upon it that it feels like a part of me is missing. So sad I know. I'm just waiting for a transaction to come through and then I'm off to the nearest Telus store. Forget working out 'til this evening. My telecommunications are more important...haha. I just hope my dealings with Telus aren't a headache with a side of extra costs. I'm dying here.

Wish me luck.

Halloween Night

Today, I took it easy quite literally. I slept in as per usual. I didn't work out because my body was telling me "NO". I did some chores around the house. Accompanied my sister, Mabel, at Superstore for her groceries. Then showered and got ready. I did not have any idea as to what I was going to wear for Halloween. At first, it was a toss up between a geisha girl and a nurse. Then I remembered I had a b-ball jersey and decided to go for a b-ball girl look. It turned out quite well with some elements from home and my sister's place (headband and electrical tape for the strips on my knee high socks).

The kiddies were lacking in the area my sister lived. We got about 12 kids...that's it. While waiting for the kids to ring the doorbell and say the infamous lines "trick-or-treat", my sister and I decided to take back our childhood and watch "The Labyrinth" with Jennifer Connolly and David Bowie. Good movie.

My gay phone wasn't working after my sisters place, so I decided to head over to Devon's house without notice (I know..I'm so rude). He was luckily still at home. We watched some of the movie "Bogeyman 3" while trying to figure out our plans for the evening. We decided to head over to Lorraine's place.

When we got there they had already started to play the movie "28 Weeks Later". Let me tell you, I am not a fan of scary movies and this one is no exception to that rule. I found myself screaming most of the movie. And just when I thought it was done for the evening, they popped in the movie "Dawn of the Dead". YES...MORE SCARY. I had to cover my eyes for some of the scenes. Yes...yes I am a huge baby. My heart was racing the whole entire time...not to mention even after the movie. I hope I can sleep tonight.

Note to self: check underneath my bed for zombies and lock my doors...haha.