"MY" Night

"I got a feeling. That tonight's gonna be a good night." And yesterday was.

I had dropped my brother to school for his midterm and drove myself early to the gym before my 7:00 pm personal training session with Amy. I started out with my regular circuit when Amy came over and said her 6:15 pm client canceled. We ended to having a double slot (1 hour and 30 minutes). Let me tell you it was quite intense. She made up a new circuit for myself that includes cardio, legs, arms, abs...just about everything. I had told her it would be ideal if this circuit could cater to my goal of a "total body makeover". She put in 12 different exercises....12...she is truly insane, but then again I want that "insane" body. After the gym, I was completely exhausted.

Republic was slow at first when we got there at 10:30 but it got bumpin' around 12:30 am. Had my awesome friends there (Diana, Christian, Devon, mL, Des, Lisa). It was great fun. It was my night. My first official night where I felt my sexiest, danced my heart out and was FREE. Oh let me tell you, my legs were so sore from all the non-stop crazy dancing. We stayed until 1:30 am. Only bunk part about yesterday was my phone stopped working...so gay. After I got home, I loaded the pics on my computer, listened to my baby Michael Buble and chilled in front of the computer 'til 4:00 am. GREAT NIGHT.

Bring On The Sexy!!!

I cannot express enough how much this class boosts self-confidence. Wow do I ever feel great about myself and my body. I had such an amazing time. Sure it was a tad bit intimating at first, but once you free your inhibitions the fun beings. I must admit there were some moves I didn't have that finesse to but everything comes with practice. She even gave us homework: The SHOULDER twist and strutting (not walking) with the pointed toe. I feel like...NO..I AM one strong, sexy woman. Don't mess with me lol. The class allows one to bring out their inner goddess. I definitely felt very empowered after the class. It sounds so corny but I had/have such a warm fuzzy feeling in my heart. I AM SPECIAL and tomorrow night it's on. Bring on the sexy.

Right now, I am enjoying my Starbucks Tazo Chai Latte and happily making a "I AM HOT" music playlist. I know I'm weird. Nothing is going to bring me down...NOTHING.

Oh Sleep...Where Art Thou???

Just when I thought my sleeping pattern was back to normal I have yet another sleepless night even with a sleeping pill. Very, very odd. I guess I have a lot on my mind, but really...what's new...right? There was even one point in the day when I stood up too quickly and experienced what could of easily been my very first blackout. Luckily, I had enough energy to give myself a little tap on the face before it happened. Close call. So with that, I obviously did not get a chance to hit the gym today, which I am quite upset at myself for.
No sleep + working out = disaster. On a good note, to make up for missing the gym, I have my very first Pole Dancing class this evening with my good friend Mary Lou. It should be quite interesting. The class claims to sculpt, tone, lengthen your body, improve coordination, build core strength, increase your flexibility and last but definitely not least...make you feel sexy. It's something I've always wanted to try out to bring out that sexy goddess in me. I'll let you know how it goes. Let's all pray I won't blackout during class.

Bad Dream

I had a bad dream last night. It may have to do with the fact that I had talked to someone prior. My dream was all over the place, but I do recall someone rushing off in a car. Just when I was starting to feel better about myself, I get sucked in again. I woke up quite sad and frustrated. Anyways....

I went to the gym again today for another outstanding 2 hours. Did my other 2 circuits my trainer had made up for me and some cardio at the very end. Yet again, my body was telling me to stop, but my mind was wanting to keep going. I kept thinking to myself "you can do it."

I had my good junior high school friend, Eric, over today to tinker around with music for a potential making of a male/female group and a song for his bride on their wedding day. So sweet. We eventually got to songs about loving ones self and hate. "I'm so sick of love songs. So tired of tears. So done with wishing you were still here. Said I'm so sick of love songs...so sad and slow. So why can't I turn off the radio?" Use singing as an outlet to sing all my sorrows away...okay okay I'll stop with the depressing stuff.

What am I doing now? Thinking about what I should do about my current situation. I know I should cut him off..I know. It's hard because he wants to be friends. I need to sleep on it. Cross your fingers that I will be able to tonight.

Day 2: Push It To The Limit

I went to the gym at 3:45 pm. Did 20 minutes of interval training on the treadmill and my ab workout. I know I look like a complete fool when I'm on the treadmill but you know what we are all at the gym for a purpose...to get in shape. Even though all my wobbly bits are jiggling around everywhere, I got no shame. I don't care. I was actually going to go home because my body was tired until my mind snapped into place and said "WHAT....YOU ARE NOT DONE YET!!!".

I decided to do my regular circuit of weight training (3 sets with about 10-15 reps of each exercise - about 10 different ones). I really pushed myself to the limits today. I looked at the clock and my god I was surprised. It was already 5:30 pm. I didn't even realize I stayed that long. Mind you, my back, arms, legs...pretty much everything is in pain but it feels good. As someone once said "PAIN IS WEAKNESS LEAVING THE BODY."

I know I can do it. I feel it in my bones.

I CAN DO THIS. EASY. NO PROBLEM!!!

Random thought: Games

I was talking to an old friend last night seeking for advice. Why is it that we play the games that we do in life? Life is one big game. You need the right strategies. You need to make the right moves. One wrong move and you're toast. I hate mind games. I am the worst at that. I've got a couple of friends who are experts. I try not to follow because that is not who I am. It's not in my nature. That's all I got for this random thought.

Day 1: Weight Loss Challenge Begins

Well I went to the YMCA for the first time in a long time. It was kinda small...just not the place for me. I thoroughly enjoy working out at Shapes. Shapes all the way. Plus I adore my trainer, Amy.

Worked out with my good friend Joe. Since he had a membership he is allowed to invite a guest for free...which was me. We started with a warm-up of walking, then moved to the room for weight training and ab work. Afterward, we went upstairs to do some cardio on the StairMaster. I find I always sweat like a pig after going on the machine. It's pretty crazy. Pushed some limits today, which is a good thing since I thought I would of been much weaker since I didn't eat properly or sleep properly yesterday night. I guess I can surprise myself sometimes.

Tomorrow is a new day. Going to hit the gym hard. No more nonsense. I am determined to reach my goal within the next couple of months of 15-20 pounds...no excuses.

I will try to post pictures at the beginning of each week.

WOW! I Lost That Much?

I went to my personal training session yesterday and I weighed 149lbs, compared to the 159 before the event happened. I lost an inch on my waist, and inch on my bust, and an inch on my hips. Calve and thigh measurements are the same. I felt so weak. Tomorrow is my second training session. I know (I hope) by then I will have more energy. My trainer is going to design a workout plan for me to reach my goal of a total body makeover for the next 3 months before Brazil (if I still go). There are some days the depression really gets to me. All I have to do is just remember to BREATHE.

Today Is The Start Of Something New

Getting back to the gym after it's been about 2 weeks is really tough. But today I am determined to give it my all. My goal is to lose 20 pounds in the next 3-4 months. I need to go to the gym everyday for a better "me". Eating healthy and exercising is the key to shedding the pounds. The goal I have in mind is Brazil for the end of January. If I do end up going I wanna look...not just hot....AMAZING haha. But I guess if I want a good start today it may be a good idea to eat some breakfast.

ta ta for now.